“My greatest adventure.”
It’s one thought that randomly appears throughout the day. Even while I’m doing something like getting groceries or parking at the library. It’s like a mental twitch or tic. There’s no emotion paired with it, it’s said almost like a matter of fact by a nameless voice.
My greatest adventure.
I give it ten seconds of brainspace. And I feel a dull thrill, because I imagine my single action as one bead in a very long strand of actions. And then I go back to wherever I was before. And I don’t think about it again until the words pop up a few hours, or a day later.
My greatest adventure, the way I think about it, is my only adventure. My life.
I was scribbling something on a piece of paper when the thought struck a few minutes ago, and before I forgot I wanted to write about it here.
So there it sits.
I got a book from the library about owls of the world.
So I drew myself a little owl buddy.
I’ve been making more and more things. I’ve been doodling a lot, too. A ton, actually.
I suppose we’ll see where this goes.
After working for Kohl’s, Wal-Mart, Beall’s, Texas Furniture and Toys “R” Us, this is what I have to say about it all:
- If you sign up to work in retail, you’re signing up for verbal abuse from customers.
- Some of the hardest working people are the most underpaid.
- When you work with the public, if you don’t find reasons to laugh, you’ll cry. (And even then, you’ll probably still end up crying at some point. Because people suck.)
- Going to Target after your shift ends and keeping your red uniform on = bad idea.
- Trust no one fully.
- Daily hugs make a difference.
- Daily smiles make a difference.
- When the day is horrible as can be, use pointless optimism. Even as you don’t believe it, tell yourself the day will be delicious, the sunset will be beautiful.
- Carry your own weight.
- Jump at chances to help people.
- Amuse yourself.
- Throw fluffy things.
- Know when to walk away.
I move to West Virginia in 75 days.
I’m very ready.
And yet I’m not.
Soak it in now, that’s what a little voice is saying.
Make some more memories with your family.
Don’t be so eager to vanish.
Tonight was my last night working for Toys “R” Us. I feel odd.
I stayed with the company for a year.
I’ve been such a twister of anxiety and frenzied productivity. I need to do nothing but sit in an office all day.
Which is pretty much what my next job will involve. I am very happy about this.
I’ll tell you something, I’ve wanted to either be a librarian or work in an office for a very long time.
Librarian is still my dream job, honestly.
I want to work in a library so badly.