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Ten Seconds a Day of Dull Inspiration

“My greatest adventure.”
It’s one thought that randomly appears throughout the day. Even while I’m doing something like getting groceries or parking at the library. It’s like a mental twitch or tic. There’s no emotion paired with it, it’s said almost like a matter of fact by a nameless voice.

My greatest adventure.

I give it ten seconds of brainspace. And I feel a dull thrill, because I imagine my single action as one bead in a very long strand of actions. And then I go back to wherever I was before. And I don’t think about it again until the words pop up a few hours, or a day later.

My greatest adventure, the way I think about it, is my only adventure. My life.

I was scribbling something on a piece of paper when the thought struck a few minutes ago, and before I forgot I wanted to write about it here.

So there it sits.

What Retail Has Taught Me and Other Jazz

After working for Kohl’s, Wal-Mart, Beall’s, Texas Furniture and Toys “R” Us, this is what I have to say about it all:

  • If you sign up to work in retail, you’re signing up for verbal abuse from customers.
  • Some of the hardest working people are the most underpaid.
  • When you work with the public, if you don’t find reasons to laugh, you’ll cry. (And even then, you’ll probably still end up crying at some point. Because people suck.)
  • Going to Target after your shift ends and keeping your red uniform on = bad idea.
  • Trust no one fully.
  • Daily hugs make a difference.
  • Daily smiles make a difference.
  • When the day is horrible as can be, use pointless optimism. Even as you don’t believe it, tell yourself the day will be delicious, the sunset will be beautiful.
  • Communicate.
  • Carry your own weight.
  • Jump at chances to help people.
  • Amuse yourself.
  • Throw fluffy things.
  • Know when to walk away.

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I move to West Virginia in 75 days.

I’m very ready.

And yet I’m not.

Soak it in now, that’s what a little voice is saying.

Make some more memories with your family.

Don’t be so eager to vanish.

Tonight was my last night working for Toys “R” Us. I feel odd.

I stayed with the company for a year.

I’ve been such a twister of anxiety and frenzied productivity. I need to do nothing but sit in an office all day.

Which is pretty much what my next job will involve. I am very happy about this.

I’ll tell you something, I’ve wanted to either be a librarian or work in an office for a very long time.

Librarian is still my dream job, honestly.

I want to work in a library so badly.

Argh.

One day.